The Osho
Upanishad
Chapter 7. Silence
is a song without words
Question 1:
Beloved Osho,
Last night I was reading "The book of Mirdad".
It was so beautiful and so strong that I couldn't stop reading for hours. Then
suddenly I felt that my breath had changed, and I found myself on the edge of
crying, and I didn't know whether it was sadness, desperation, bliss, or all
three at the same time.
I tried to find out by reading the words
again, but I realized that my mind didn't really understand them when I looked
at them. How is it possible that words which the mind doesn't understand can
touch one so deeply?
There are millions of books in
the world, but The Book Of Mirdad
stands out far above any other book in existence.
It is unfortunate that very few
people are acquainted with THE BOOK OF MIRDAD for the simple reason that it is
not a religious scripture. It is a parable, a fiction, but containing oceanic
truth.
It is a small book, but the man
who gave birth to this book... and mind
my words, I am not saying "the man who wrote this book." Nobody wrote
this book. I am saying the man who gave birth to this book - he
was an unknown, a nobody. And because he was not a novelist, he never wrote
again; just that single book contains his whole experience.
The name of the man was Mikhail
Naimy.
It is an extraordinary book in
the sense that you can read it and miss it completely, because the meaning of
the book is not in the words of the book. The meaning of the book is running
side by side in silence between the words, between the lines, in the gaps.
If you are in a state of
meditativeness - if you are not only reading a fiction but you
are encountering the whole religious experience of a great human being,
absorbing it; not intellectually understanding but existentially drinking it - the
words are there but they become secondary. Something else becomes primary: the
silence that those words create, the music that those words create. The words
affect your mind, and the music goes directly to your heart.
And it is a book to be read by
the heart, not by the mind. It is a book not to be understood, but experienced.
It is something phenomenal.
Millions of people have tried
to write books so that they can express the inexpressible, but they have
utterly failed. I know only one book, The
Book Of Mirdad, which has not failed; and if you cannot get to the very
essence of it, it will be your failure, not his.
He has created a perfect device
of words, parables, situations. If you allow it, the book becomes alive and
something starts happening to your being. And naturally, because you have never
come to such a state, you are puzzled about what it is - sadness? blissfulness? There are tears, but
those tears can be either of sadness or they can be of immense joy.
You have come to a point where
you have never been before, so naturally you cannot categorize it. You cannot
put a label on it according to your old experiences. But the name does not mean
anything. What matters is that you have taken a step beyond yourself. You have
never been in this space; you have entered into the unknown, and it is so unknown
that you don't have the vocabulary even to give it a name.
Just see the point: It may look
like sadness... because for the first
time in your life you will become aware that up to now you have not been alive.
Life has happened today.
And it brings a great sadness...
you were alive - but
knowing this new experience, your whole life becomes so mundane, so
meaningless, that it is better to say that it was more death than life. And a
sadness arises that, "Why could I not reach this space before?" It is
so close - just a step beyond the boundaries of your old
mind and the whole sky with all its stars becomes available. You were confined
in such a small prison - and nobody was imprisoning you. You were the
prisoner and you were the imprisoned. You were the jailer and you were the
jailed. Naturally... a sadness, looking
to the past.
But looking to the present... a great blissfulness, a peace that passeth
understanding, a silence that is not just the opposite of sound... a silence which is absence of sound, not the
opposite of sound.
A music without any
instruments, a song without any words...
For the first time you start
feeling that, "Up to now I have been living in the head; and only this
moment the doors of my heart are open."
There is an old Chinese story.
Because of the story a proverb has come into existence - that
when the musician becomes perfect, he burns his instruments; they become not
only useless, they become a nuisance because they only create noise. Only
between the noise are there a few moments of music - why
not have it all?
And when the archer becomes a
perfect master, he drops his bow and his arrows and forgets all about it. A
strange proverb - because ordinarily we think that when we
become perfect our instruments will also attain a perfection with us; their
working will also become perfect.
The proverb comes from a story:
A man had become a great archer, and he was confident that he had attained
perfection. He never missed any target. He was able to kill flying birds without
fail. He appeared before the emperor and told him, "It is time that you
should declare me the greatest, the master archer of the empire. Otherwise I am
ready for any challenge. If somebody doubts it, I am ready for a
competition."
The king knew the man, and knew
that what he was saying was not bragging, it was a simple fact. But the old
servant of the king said, "Wait a minute before you say anything, because
I have something to say before you decide." He was so old that he had
served the grandfather of the king, the father of the king, the king himself,
and there was a possibility that he would serve the fourth generation also.
The king had tremendous respect
for the man. He said, "If you have something to say, you say it."
The old servant said, "This
man knows nothing of archery yet. He can kill animals, he can kill birds,
flying birds; he never misses any target. That's all okay, but that is not
perfection and mastery. I know a man who is a perfect archer. He lives in the
mountains, and because he became a perfect archer thirty years ago, he has
completely forgotten about archery. After perfection, what is the point of
remembering?"
The archer was puzzled:
"What kind of archery is this, that the man has even forgotten archery?
For thirty years he has not practiced - if I don't practice a single day, the next day
I can see mistakes happening. Within two days, critics will see that mistakes
are happening, and within three days anybody will be able to see that there are
mistakes. Thirty years!"
And the old man said,
"Unless you go to the forest and meet the great archer... If he approves there is no question of any
competition - I will ask the emperor to declare you the
champion master of the whole kingdom."
The archer had to go and search
in the mountains. On a very high peak, in a small cave, he found the old man.
The archer was carrying his bow, his arrows. The old man looked at the bow,
looked at the arrows, and he said, "These things I have seen once, I
remember. What do you call these things?"
The man said, "You are a
great archer? You don't even know the name of the bow and the arrows!"
The old man said, "This is
a bow and arrows... and what is the
function of it? What do you do with it?"
The archer said, "Come out
and I will show you." And he killed with one arrow a faraway flying bird - just
one arrow and the bird was on the earth.
The old man said, "This
you call archery? I remember, when I was young I used to call this archery too.
Now, come with me."
The old man must have been
nearabout one hundred and twenty years old, not less than that - very
frail. He took the young archer to a cliff which was hanging over a valley
thousands of feet deep.
The archer stopped. He said,
"I cannot go on that cliff! Just a small mistake and you are finished
forever."
But the old man went to the
very edge - his feet were half hanging off the edge of the
cliff. He was standing with just half his feet on the edge and he said,
"Come on - you are a great archer; you should know
balance, because the secret of archery is balance. And if you are trembling so
much inside, your arrow cannot be perfect, because your arrow will be going
through your hands. And you are trembling. Come on! You are young, and as you
see I am old, one hundred and twenty years old."
The man tried, one or two feet...
and fell down on the rock. He said,
"I have never been afraid of death. But I cannot do that."
That old man came back and he
said, "If you cannot do this, forget all about archery. The day you can do
this you will throw away the bow, you will throw away the arrows. Now look... "
There were seven birds flying far away. And the old man simply looked at those
seven birds one by one, and they all fell down on the earth.
He said, "When you have no
trembling inside, just your eyes are enough; no arrows are needed. So go back,
you are an amateur. I will come when the time has come, I will keep watch on
you. I have my people in the city, in the capital; it was one of my people who
sent you here. He was one of my disciples and I have a few more disciples who
will keep watch. And if I am not alive, then I will tell them to inform the
king when you are a perfect archer."
The young man was simply in
great despair. He proved to be an amateur; he was thinking himself to be a
champion master.
After five years... The old man had said, "Learn inner
balancing." I call it meditation; these are different names, in different
countries. 'Inner balancing' means you are so balanced at your innermost center
that there is no trembling at all. You are in such a silent, unmoving space, as
if you are not.
After five years a man visited
the archer. As they were entering the archer's house, he saw a big bow hanging
on the wall. The guest asked, "What is that?"
And the archer said, "I
used to remember, but fortunately I met an old man... now I have completely forgotten what it
is."
But the guest said, "I
have heard that you are an archer."
The man said, "Forget all
about it. When a man is young he has all kinds of stupid ideas. I also had my
stupidities, but due to the compassion of the old man in the mountains I
survived, I moved on."
That very day the king called
him and declared him to be the champion master archer of the kingdom.
"But," he said,
"I know nothing of archery. What are you doing?"
The king said, "I am not
doing anything. These are instructions from your master. Of course you could
not be the champion master. The old man has left his body, with the message,
'While I am alive he cannot be a champion. And the poor fellow wanted to be a
champion so desperately, but if I am alive in the kingdom it is impossible. I
will never come to the capital to contest; the whole idea is childish. But
there are my disciples who will not allow it to happen any other way. Only my
death... and it is worth it, to make him
happy.'
The old man is dead. The
message has come that you should be declared the champion."
The king said, "Just out
of curiosity I would like to see how far your eyes can function as
arrows."
The man looked into the sky.
Nine birds - a whole flock - came
down to the earth.
And the king said, "That
old man was never wrong."
This is archery.
A musician when he is perfect
forgets his instruments; now silence is his music.
The Book Of Mirdad is one of the greatest devices that have been
created down the ages. Don't read it like any other book. Don't read it like
SHRI BHAGAVADGITA or THE HOLY BIBLE. Read it as beautiful poetry, as music
spread on the pages. Read it as a message from a master of meditation.
The words are code words.
Don't look for their meaning in
the dictionary.
Their meaning is when they
strike something in your heart.
That's why you felt, reading
MIRDAD, that your breathing changed. It has to be understood very carefully:
your breathing changes with each of your emotions. When you are angry, watch:
you will have a different kind of breathing, unrhythmic, chaotic. When you are
in love, just holding the hand of your beloved, your breathing will be
different - peaceful, silent, musical, harmonious. And
these are small things; I am just giving you examples to understand.
When you are sitting with the
master, the breathing becomes so harmonious that sometimes you may think it has
stopped. There will be moments when suddenly you become aware - "Has my breathing stopped?" Because
it will be so silent that even you cannot feel its movement.
There was one very significant
man in south India, Brahma Yogi, but he got distracted. He was able to bring
his breathing to such a harmonious state that doctors declared him to be dead.
Because if there is no breathing... and
not just for a second or two; he was capable for ten minutes. Medical science
has its own limits. For ten minutes, no sign of breathing...
In Oxford, in Cambridge, in
Calcutta University, in Rangoon University; he went all over the world.
He forgot completely the
mission of his life, that he had been meditating to attain to his innermost
self. That's how people get distracted -
he became an entertainer, a showman. He
earned much, he became world famous. And the doctors everywhere were shocked.
In every medical college of importance in the world he was examined with all
their refined instruments. They had to declare that the man was dead, and after
ten minutes he would start breathing again.
It was not that he was not
breathing for ten minutes; he was breathing, but the breathing had gone so slow
that it was beyond the instruments' capacity to capture its movement.
This happened to you reading
MIRDAD, that you felt your breathing was changing. It was beautiful.
And because your breathing
changed, that's why you came to a point where you were indecisive.
Whether you were sad or silent,
blissful, ecstatic, you could not decide, because the thing was so new and you
had no category to put it in.
But I will tell you: You were
sad, sad because you have wasted your whole life - and
this space was so close; you were just to reach and it was going to be
available to you. You were sad, just like a beggar will be sad who comes to
know that he is the emperor and there has been some mistake; the beggar is
sitting on the throne and the emperor is begging in the streets. All those
years of begging... a shadow, a sadness.
You also felt silence, because
THE BOOK OF MIRDAD has been created by a man who knows the inner workings of
human consciousness. He was not a writer; hence, nobody ever bothered to give
him a Nobel prize. He was alive in this century, he was our contemporary. His
book has not been translated into many languages for the simple reason that the
book is unique - it is not a book, it is a device. And it is
not meant to be read, it is meant to create a certain atmosphere around you. If
you are ready, available, receptive, the atmosphere will be created and there
will be great silence.
And silence is always blissful.
So you got very much confused:
There was sadness because of the past; there was silence because of the present
- and silence is always bringing flowers of
blissfulness.
You thought there must be
something in the words, so you read those words again. But you could not find
it; in those words there was nothing, they were ordinary words. From where was
this experience happening?
It was happening because you
are on the path.
You are part of a mystery
school.
You are a seeker.
It would not have happened to
you if you were not on the path. It happened to you because you were getting
ready for this happening, and THE BOOK OF MIRDAD simply triggered what was
already going to happen. It would have happened even without The Book Of Mirdad, perhaps a little
later.
The man on the path may find in
his life... Listening to music sometimes
it happens. The musician may be an ordinary man; he may not know anything about
silence and blissfulness, but his music can trigger something in you. It may be
triggered by seeing a sunset; now the sunset is not aware of you at all. It may
be triggered by the perfume of a rose.
But remember one thing: Just
because The Book Of Mirdad helped you
in reaching a new space in yourself, don't tell others to read it - because they will find it just ordinary
fiction, beautiful.
They may even destroy your
connection that has been created unknowingly; you were not ready for this
experience. So one thing: Don't tell others, "Read The Book Of Mirdad, it brings such beautiful experiences." It
may not bring them anything.
Secondly, because it has
brought you a beautiful experience this time, don't read it again and again in
order to get it. Because this time you were not expecting anything; next time
you will be full of expectations. You will be waiting and watching for when it
happens - it will not happen. Once in a while it is
possible, but the basic condition to be fulfilled is, no expectations.
And I say to you, because it
happened with The Book Of Mirdad it
can happen through many other avenues. You are ready, you just need a little
push. Be available to all those situations where that push is possible, but
without any expectation. Just to enjoy... a beautiful dance, beautiful music, a
beautiful painting; just sitting by the side of the sea and the music of the
waves, the continuous music, or looking at the moon - anything may help, but don't expect.
The Book Of Mirdad can be of immense help if you don't expect, and
it is a book worth reading thousands of times. You cannot understand its
oceanic meaning in one reading, because in each page, each turn, each chapter,
each line, there is a possibility - because the man who wrote it...
I understand that man. He was
one of the greatest men of this century. He lived unknown to the world, but
just this one book makes him the greatest writer not only of this century but
of all the centuries.
I myself might have never come
across his book... because it was
published in the beginning of this century and then it was never published
again, it never became a best seller. It was not available in the libraries
because at the most only three thousand copies were in existence all over the
world. I became aware of the book in a strange way.
I was a student in the
university, but on Sundays I used to go to a market in the city where stolen
things were sold. I was not interested in anything else, just stolen books. I
got The Book Of Mirdad as a stolen
book. Somebody's whole library... three
hundred books in all, and all the books were beautiful. And for those three
hundred books a man was asking only a hundred rupees, so I immediately gave him
a hundred rupees.
The man said, "But
remember one thing: these are stolen books, and if the police come here I am
going to tell them your name, because on each book is the name of the man to
whom these books belong and he is a well - known man." He was a retired
professor of literature.
I said, "Don't be
worried."
And the police finally came and
they said, "This is not good. You were told by the man that these are
stolen books, still you purchased them."
I said, "I don't repent,
and I don't want to talk to you. I would like to meet the owner."
They said, "For
what?"
I said, "I can settle
things with him very easily. He is a retired professor, old. Just take me to
him" - so they took me to the old professor.
I closed the doors and said to
the professor, "You are already so old, what are you going to do with
those books? You will be dead soon, and you have found the right man for your
books."
He said, "You are strange!
You have purchased my stolen books and you have come to convince me that you
have done the right thing?"
I said, "Yes, I say I have
done the right thing. You have used them. You cannot read any more; your eyes
are no longer in a situation to read. If you just want to keep three hundred
books on your shelf, I can bring five hundred books, six hundred books. But
don't ask for those three hundred books, particularly for The Book Of Mirdad. That I cannot return to you, stolen or not
stolen."
The old man looked at me and he
said, "Did you like The Book Of
Mirdad?"
I said, "I not only liked
it - I have read thousands of books; none is
comparable to it."
He gave me fifty rupees back.
He said, "You have wasted fifty rupees - you
are a student; you don't have much money, I know about you. You keep the books.
And I agree with you that the books have reached to the right man, and the
person who has stolen them needs to be rewarded. I am going to die any day, you
are right, and then I don't know where those books will go.
"And I have loved those
books, cherished those books. My whole life I have collected the best books.
And the moment you said The Book Of Mirdad you closed the deal.
You just take these fifty rupees, and whenever you need more - because I don't have anybody; no wife, no
children, and enough pension and I don't have any expenses - you
are always welcome to come to me. If you don't have money to purchase books I
am here.
"Your love for MIRDAD has
made you a man of my family. I have loved MIRDAD my whole life, and I have
tried hundreds of my friends, but nobody could get him. And you are ready to
fight for a stolen book, you are ready to go to the court for a stolen book.
There is no need. I was in search of you.
"It is strange," he
said, "that The Book Of Mirdad
has found you itself."
That's how I found the first
copy of The Book Of Mirdad. It needs
to be in every house, it is so precious.
And it has touched your heart.
Just don't start having
expectations, and it will help you on the way immensely.
Question 2:
Beloved Osho,
Unenlightened enlightenment seems to become
more and more popular these days, particularly among therapists. Having
recovered from that disease, i say that claiming enlightenment without having
attained is the greatest betrayal; and influencing others through authority
based on this falseness is the greatest crime possible.
Please comment.
Gunakar, you are a hundred
percent right.
Before I answer your question,
I would like to introduce you to the people here. They may not know you, and
without knowing you it will be difficult for them to understand the proper
context of the question.
Gunakar is one of my most
beloved sannyasins. He is immensely talented... a keen intelligence, and an authentic search.
He had come to me many years ago, and he has remained with me in many ups and
many downs.
The biggest problem with him
was that he is a German, and a German finds it easier to be a master than to be
a disciple, naturally.
So while he was here with me in
India he was intelligent enough to understand that he is not a master, and he
worked as a disciple. But whenever he would go back to Germany, the trouble
would arise: in Germany he would become enlightened.
There are no outer criteria for
enlightenment, so he would get a few Germans to support him also as the
enlightened master. And once he got into the trip then it was not only that he
would sit silently - that is very difficult for a German - he
had to do something. Now that he was enlightened, he started enlightening the
whole world: writing letters to prime ministers, presidents, all the
ambassadors of all the countries, to the UNO, convincing them that except for
enlightenment there is no way out.
And when he would be going full
- fledged, I would send him a message, "Come back to India because you
have done enough. A little rest will be good." And coming back to India,
his enlightenment would disappear. Sitting in front of me, he had to become a
disciple again. He started feeling very strange because it happened once,
twice, thrice...
Then he said, "This is a
strange thing. We think Osho helps people to become enlightened. I become
enlightened when I am in Germany, and whenever I go back to Osho he finishes my
enlightenment - I am back to zero!" So for almost six
years, he had not come.
Who wants to lose
enlightenment? You come to me to be enlightened, and poor Gunakar had to come
here to lose enlightenment.
But a false thing is a false
thing, an imagination is an imagination.
You can brag, you can deceive,
you can become a con man, but deep down you will know what you are doing.
And finally he realized, in
Germany, that once a man becomes enlightened he cannot become unenlightened;
that is impossible, that has never happened in the whole of history - except to Gunakar. There is no other
precedent. And he is intelligent enough and courageous enough; he dropped it
himself.
The last time, I was watching
what was happening. I was inquiring about how things were going, how far his
enlightenment had reached. The last time I inquired of a German sannyasin in
America; he said, "A strange phenomenon has happened. I met Gunakar. I had
never thought of it... " Because he had a beautiful castle on the Rhine
River in a very scenic place, really worthy of an enlightened man, and
disciples would come to the castle...
The German sannyasin told me,
"I met him in a restaurant in a sannyasin commune. When he was enlightened
he was not moving like ordinary people in ordinary places. And he was not only
in the restaurant, he was washing plates, serving; he was working there!"
And the German sannyasin asked
him, "Gunakar, what happened to the enlightenment?"
And he said, "I am not
enlightened, I am just a dishwasher."
When this was told to me, I
really felt tremendously happy for him because to be a dishwasher in reality is
better than to be a Gautam Buddha in dream.
And this time he has come not
as an enlightened man. This time has a beauty: he has come just as himself - open,
available, ready. All those past days when he used to come, he was tight. It
was bound to be, because he was afraid -
he would come to me and I was going to
tell him, "Gunakar, just get down. You are not supposed to be enlightened
yet. Wait!" He was tight, he was tense, afraid.
And he could not live there
either, because the inner thirst was there, still unfulfilled. That bogus
enlightenment was not going to help. So he had to come, but with a tenseness.
This time he has come relaxed,
with nothing to lose. He is an ordinary man.
And to be ordinary is to be
something immensely beautiful. It means relaxed, it means non - tense, it means
ready to grow.
This is the background.
He is saying, "I am out of
this disease of getting false enlightenment, pretending to be really
enlightened, teaching people." Now he can understand what harm such people
must be doing - because I am not there.
And the whole sannyas movement
has the greatest numbers in Europe, particularly in Germany.
That's why the German
government is the most afraid of me.
I have not applied for any
visa. Still, their parliament has decided that IN CASE I apply, I am not to be
allowed in Germany. Their fear is that I have the biggest number of sannyasins
in Germany, and these are not just the masses but the intelligentsia. Gunakar
is a law expert, somebody is a scientist, somebody is a painter, an artist,
somebody is a mathematician - Germany has tremendous qualities - and
strangely enough, they have all become attracted to sannyas.
And the fear of the German
government is that if I come to Germany the people who are not yet sannyasins - the
young generation, young intellectuals - are bound to become sannyasins.
And every government is afraid
of any movement that creates individuals, that creates values of freedom, love,
silence, peace, rejoicing.
So it is a good chance for a
few people - there are two, three persons I have been told
about who have become enlightened - knowing that I cannot come into Germany. The
Indian government is being pressured by the American government that no
sannyasins should be allowed to reach to me.
So it is a good opportunity for
these people: they have become enlightened, they are gathering followers.
And Gunakar is right, that it
is one of the greatest crimes to claim enlightenment when you are not - because this is the greatest deception that
you can give to humanity. It is the ugliest phenomenon.
You can be a con man, cheat people
out of their money, their belongings, their houses, their wives, their
husbands, anything; that is immaterial, that does not matter much. But a con
man as far as enlightenment is concerned is cheating you about your
consciousness, about your very being. He is doing some kind of violence, which
is invisible but which is the worst that can be done by any criminal.
All those three therapists will
come back, because soon they will realize that they are doing something which
is not only harming others but is harming their own growth. If you are not
enlightened and you claim that you are, then you stop progressing towards
enlightenment. You are already enlightened; what is the need?
All kinds of cheats, thieves
can be forgiven, but the people who are playing with your consciousness, with
your being, cannot be forgiven.
Somebody takes away your money:
perhaps he is not doing harm to you, perhaps he is unburdening you. Perhaps
from today he will be continuously feeling guilty. And what is he going to do
with the money?
I have heard... one poor tailor had the habit of purchasing
one lottery ticket every month. He had been doing that for thirty years; it had
become almost a routine. In the beginning he used to hope that some day he
would win the lottery. By and by he had completely forgotten that there was any
connection between winning the lottery and purchasing the ticket.
But old habits die hard. So he
went on purchasing the ticket, and one day suddenly a black Rolls Royce
limousine came and stopped in front of the poor tailor's shop. People came out,
carrying big bags full of notes. He said, "What is the matter? What is
happening?"
They said, "You have won!
Your number has come up."
He could not believe it. But he
was immensely happy, that at last... he has
won ten lakh, a million rupees; now there is no need to be a poor tailor.
He closed the shop and threw
the key in a well - because what is the need now? He is not going
to open the shop again. Ten lakhs for a poor tailor - it is
enough for ten lives!
But it was not enough even for
two years, because what will you do? - he started drinking, he started gambling, he
started going to the prostitutes. He was a healthy man; within two years all
money was gone, all health was gone, and he was asking people, somebody, to
help him to find the key to his shop.
They said, "You are an
idiot. Why did you throw away the key in the first place?"
He said, "I was thinking
that ten lakhs would be enough. I am alone, there is nobody else. I was so poor
that I could never get married. But my God, these ten lakhs have given me such
hell - from one prostitute to another prostitute,
finding myself every morning lying in the gutter completely drunk, the
hangover, the headache... I never had
any headache in my life; these two years I have suffered hell. If I meet these
people who came in that black Rolls Royce I will kill them."
"But," the people
said, "that was not their fault! you have been purchasing the
tickets."
Some young man jumped into the
well, tried to find the key and the key to the shop was found.
People collected some money for
the tailor's medicine and for his doctor; the poor man really had suffered
badly.
But again he started purchasing
that ticket! Old habits die really hard. And he was continually condemning the
lottery: "I don't want to win."
"But why do you go on
purchasing the ticket?"
He said, "If I don't
purchase, it seems something is missing - I
cannot sleep well, I cannot work well.
It has become such a routine.
You can imagine, thirty years... But you
can be certain that it cannot happen again. In thirty years it happened only
once. In another thirty years I will be dead and it cannot happen again."
But by chance it happened
again. The next year, the same black Rolls Royce stood before his house. He
said, "My God, why are you against me? Have I to suffer that hell
again?"
The whole neighborhood
gathered. They said, "If you don't want to suffer, you can reject the
money, you can donate it."
He said, "Never! It is my
earning."
He locked the door to his shop
and he said, "Now, I really drop the key. There will be no need for it
because I cannot survive these two years any more. I don't have enough health...
and again those scenes, those nightmares."
And he went on the same routine again.
After two years he was a
completely shattered man. Back to the shop! He asked the neighbors,
"Somehow find my key, and I promise you that I will never accept any money
from these idiots who have been killing me."
They said, "Never accept?
That means you will purchase, you will go on purchasing the ticket?"
He said, "As far as the
ticket is concerned, that I cannot stop."
People get into a certain
routine.
Gunakar, it is good that you
got out of it without me. It was good that you stayed in Germany and didn't
come to me for these six, seven years. It has been a great realization to you - that
imagination is not going to help, and that any claim about inner realization
which is false is the greatest crime in the world.
Those people who are doing it
will also realize it; help them to realize. Go to them and tell them that you
have passed this disease: "Now stop purchasing this ticket. You know
perfectly well that you are not enlightened." And tell them, "If you
are enlightened, go to Osho. If you have guts, go to him.
And if your enlightenment still
remains in front of him, then you can be certain that it is there. But if it
disappears and comes back only in Germany, it is not of any worth."
Enlightenment made in Germany
is simply useless!
Question 3:
Beloved Osho,
An old hermit living in the mountains said,
when asked why he was up thereand how long he had been there, "a long time
ago there were two bulls fighting by the seashore. They fought and fought, and
finally disappeared into the ocean. And from that day to this, I cannot
remember a single thing."
I really love the way the old hermit evoked
such a vivid image of the duality of the mind, and then its disappearance into
enlightenment.
Would you please comment on this?
There is nothing to comment on;
the story is so simple, so beautiful, so clear.
Your mind is a duality. Because
of its constant fight, you cannot know your oneness. The moment that fight
disappears you have come home. Then who bothers to remember how many days, how
many years, how many lives - all that concern was of the mind.
Your inner being has no
calendars.
Its existence is eternal; it is
eternity itself.
When you find such beautiful
stories, and when you can understand them yourself, don't make a question out
of them. You should bring questions which you cannot find answers for. You
should bring questions which are torturing you and there is no way out.
Whatever I can say on this
story will be simply elaboration, but it will not give you any more insight.
The story is complete in
itself.
Question 4:
Beloved Osho,
What is the holy fire?
Milarepa, I am!